Well, I was. But now my anger has sort of boiled down (after a day – maybe it was good that blogger was down during that time) but i will blog it anyway.
If I don't land a job in Hongkong, or land a job here, or even UK (maybe not), and if I have to 乖乖 trot home to Singapore, I will, when I have the ability to earn enough keep to MOVE OUT. (well, either i work my shit ass out or find a rich husband quick – the latter seems like a better idea) Mia, u wanna join me?
And so being, I will leave a stubborn cow, and a stubborn bull to fight each other out and I, the stubborn calf, will not suffer being stuck in between.
I could just strangle my mother. SHe just DOES NOT listen. Not that I am ordering her around or anything, I just warning her the road she is taking will end up in a big pile of mistakes. She won't listen and so, she goes on. Sometimes, I really wonder whether she is just living in her own world, and whatever she hears just goes through her ears without bypassing the brain. I AM SO SICK of trying to stop her. You might be saying, then 你走你的阳光道，我走我的阴 something 路 (my chinese a bit half past six sorry) NO. i can't. SHe will drag me onto her yang guang dao, I can't argue cos SHE DOESN'T LISTEN so how? make the mistake with her lor. Even if I ignore her, and not follow her, the mistake made will be still mine (a bit complicated to explain) If the consequences are not mine to bear, 我才懒得理你嘞… but its becos I care therefore I voice out. but in the end, all I end up with is, tonnes of frustration. And becos its my mother, thus I voice out. If u are just a fren, I voice out once, u don't listen then go ahead. I am not always right anyways.
even if i ignore her, which i have been, she will still go on doing dumb dumb stuff. AARGH. Dunno lah. My dad just lets her do what she wants, cos it doesn't involve him most of the time.. (tat is what men do right? when there is an arguement btwn mum and daughter, it's their business, they just sit there and watch good show) Even if she nags him, he will just say ok and go on and do whatever… but I can't just say ok and do..cos it's not me, and I don't want to walk one big circle to do things…..which she doesnt understand.
I have spoken to her about these things. BUT IT IS NOT IN HER HEAD. i have spoken nicely and politely without screaming my head off, but SHE DOESN'T GET IT.
Next time, I am not going to be that nice liao. I dunno what it takes to get it in head that I AM ME. not her but she refuses to let go. aargh. Her frens have spoken to her (upon my request), I cried in front of her, her sister has adviced her, my dad has adviced her, WHAT THE BLARDDEEE HELL CAN GET HER TO GET IT? I don't even think God can. *tears hair out in total frustration*
if I die in some freak accident, dunno how she is going to take it man.
I am TRYING very hard to be a good daughter as I can be, I know raising me isn't easy, and I just want to do my part, but it's so BLARDDEEE hard.
i have blogged about this like a million and ten times. I wonder when I will stop.
haha. a complaining entry. Only 2 things i complain about : idiots(mostly those inconsiderate singaporeans) and my mum
Talking about that, I have been reading quite a few blogs, and there is not one, without a comment about idiotic inconsiderate kiasu s'poreans…see? *rolls eyes*