Yay! Hopefully I would be updating more!

Am playing with the apps now so nothing much.

Merry CHristmas n a happy 2010!

Yes. I have thought about it. And I like quiet people. Pls don’t tell me – then go marry a mute or go make friends with the mute only.

Wait, before I continue – let me tell you my 2 close friends aren’t VERY quiet people but I still get along very well…. (maybe sometimes I get a headache when 2 of them together lah… )No offence – but I still can live with noisy people lah…

Well, back to the topic, I realised that what attracts me in a person is a person who is quiet but not totally those who are quiet and meek and don’t talk at all cos have no self confidence that kind of quiet. Quiet in the sense that – confident, not a bragger (who talks a lot of empty talk), but when he speaks, it’s sweet and succinct, able to bring across his point without ANY ELABORATION… more to the end of being cool if u get what I mean. Quiet – won’t talk much, gets the work done, humble and hardworking.

Let me tell u the opposite of what I mean. talk a lot (obviously) but really empty talk, bragger to the extent that u can see insecurity, longwinded – one point can talk for 10 min kind, VERY LOUD – this point is what gets on my nerves…

I don’t mean quiet until there would be periods of awkward silence… conversations can be carried out still but not in a longwinded, round the bush manner, or monosyllable answers that sound patronising and that I’m carrying out a single party conversation kind of quiet. I suppose u can call such a person – gentle? Of course, can’t be so quiet until it bores me to tears but I suppose it takes some chemistry?

The reason why I suddenly thought of this – my father is driving me up the wall! So long winded! I suppose that’s what u r when u get older… ladida… oh well.

Ha. What a stupid title but I’m running out of ideas.

Was bored so decided to watch some MVs on youtube and I always go back to these 2…

This is the one that was aired in US – so they are singing in English. If u never ever heard this song, WHERE ARE YOU? OR RATHER WHERE WERE YOU?!  It is playing EVERYWHERE! But it’s really addictive – now it’s my ringtone…haha

And another MV I always watch,

The Jacko of Korea – Rain!

His dancing’s really cool!

Ok off to bed I go!

Last time, I thought people who ran marathons were crazy people.. I still think so.. but I have joined them.

Completed my 10k run this morning! A bit slow but hey, this is my first time running 10 k ok? I have never ran 10k on a threadmill the furthest I have done so – 5k on a threadmill because it gets tooooooooooooooooooooo boring and monotonous…. and I’m lazy to run outside – it’s too hot anyway. And I didn’t train AT ALL. November was bangkok month and work very hard month (had little off days) so I only clocked 4k MAX for the whole entire month of November and that is adding up ALL the distance I ran…. and I stopped to drink…u have to stop cos everyone was crowding around anyway…. I would love to just grab while running ..not now! But I will….

Next! Sundown! End of May 2010! I’m going to register! This time, I will try to train harder. Then Shape Run ‘10, 10k, Great Eastern 10k, and STandard Chartered AGAIN, but 21k this time. By year 2012, I should run my first full marathon… and when I have done so? I will focus on running a certain distance and try to be faster. Sounds like a good plan?

Why join those lunatics? I have no idea but at least I challenge myself. I find tat when I run, I become more disciplined and the high you get when u complete is quite good!

When I was walking towards the starting point this morning, I watched the 42km winners run towards the finish point- that feeling was awesome, they can be crazy but yet so inspiring! How much mental strength you need to complete that 42km? They did that in 2 hrs plus can?really really inspiring.

Ok going to try to konk out. My legs are SO SORE. tomorrow’s gonna be worse… tell me again, why am I doing this?

Now I’m really physically tired… haha. Haven’t opened my mouth- drafted an email but didn’t send it out – work just consumes you – then you don’t really have the time to even think about it.

I’m soo osooo sooosoo sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeepppppppppppppppppeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Woke up uber early to go collect the race pack today allllllllllllll the way @ singapore expo!! Niao  bu sheng dan place… mainly becos I got woken up by an sms so early in the morning then couldn’t sleep anymore – then decided to go before the crowd comes (thankfully I did- cos car parking was horrible after that!) Now i am really tired and sleepy.

My nespresso is coming to pass!! My cousin has ‘loh bangs’ so erm…yay! cheaper! and I managed to convince my mum that it’s a worthwhile investment.

Ok. I should be doing more constructive things.

I don’t mean that kind of tired – just sleep for 12 hours and I’m all ready to go!

I think I have said this before..and complained like a trillion times.

It really amazes me how long I am able to ‘bear’ or tahan how bad things are…. i’m not talking about 1 day, or even 1 month, it’s a year…

Now, I just need to write out my intention of going part-time.

I’m really tired.

Give  me back the working hours that I was used to – reduce the number of people working -人多事杂 – now so much office politics!!!!!!!!

2 new grads – one is completely aloof, one POTTTERS. and is completely indecisive – when given advice, doesn’t really heed.I can have a whole entire entry about her. I dread working with her…everytime we work with her, we go home late. why? cos she potters. There is a need to be careful but there is also a need to be efficient.

I’m really tired. I find that my off days are spent recovering and when I recover? oops it’s back to work again and my energy bar goes back down again.

I have a good boss…and 4 days of work only which most say SO LUCKY! why don’t you try work like mine first and tell me whether it’s lucky. I have had all these ’shit’ from others – at uni – when I finally have a day off from uni, I’d get the ’so? it’s normal to have 1 day off what.’ Not truely understanding that I have 5 days straight of uni lectures/pracs and what nots all starting at 8am in the morning. Now? I get the ‘ So lucky you only work 4 days a week!’ Yah, any longer than that- zombie Ng will turn up at your house. Obviously, we turn up 1/2 an hour before opening time, do treatments, handle the hospitalisation cases, consults, surgery, emergency if there are any, stressful surgery, decide what to do with your hospitalisation cases, stress, talk to O, account to them about their pets AND STAND ON YOUR FEET ALL THE TIME (maybe only 20% of time sitting down) we don’t leave accurately at closing time, we still have to do treatments, emergency surgery if any, and all these are overtime which I’m not paid for. So tell me if 4 days of all these, I’m lucky to work 4 days a week? Come weekends, people are free, THE CLINIC IS CRAZY. And when it’s finally your off day, worries about cases still hang over your head, smses from the clinic updating you abt your case or what do u want to do etc etc etc etc……………..

I’m tired lah.

Money not impt. Can’t bring it down with me when I say bye bye.

Lalala! Had a wonderful 3 days off work! Ok I know u guys have weekends off but I seldom have my 2 days off ok?

Went for a 5k run which wasn’t fantastic – was very sleepy but it was worth it- all for charity! I hope at least majority of the money went to a good cause… it was good timing esp considering I actually STOPPED to walk! *gaffaws* Errr.. yah. i did. Made a super big mistake of not getting any sugar in me..3/4s of the way i was giddy but persisted anyway… this ang moh lady who was probably the same age as my mum – patted me on my back when I stopped and encouraged me to go on! I was quite encouraged! But she stopped to walk then it was my turn to cheer her on….only 5k hor, we sound pathetic.

But my timing was better than the prev run! I think cos there was significantly less people and running was much easier and I had more space…Now my thighs are aching like mad! hehehe. forgot to stretch after tat….. was more concerned about I NEED MY 100 PLUS!!! HEHE. anyway i did it. and will continue to do it. Maybe should consider running outside instead of the threadmill – but it’s ALWAYS SO HOT! ok.. pls encourage me to get out there more often!

You know I seldom blog about what’s happening in Singapore besides how people do not signal, cannot read signs, cannot read where arrows point and are just inconsiderate.. but this time I am going to open my mouth.

For those in Australia and read my blog, if u haven’t heard – Miss Ris Low – 19 years old was chosen to represent Singapore in Miss World. WHat’s wrong with it you ask? LEt me present to you a video clip.

ok this one is subtitled… you basically just search for Miss Ris Low you get a lot lah.

Now, tell me what’s wrong…

So LOADS of people, LOADS of reports on how BAD her English and pronouciation etc etc etc etc. You know lah, us Singaporeans like to talk and gossip mah.

So I thought to myself- well we all speak like that except maybe a few of us at least can pronounce our words better and maybe more eloquent… so i thought, ok most probably she won’t even get into the top 20 so nvm lah! IF she does,it would be a super big embarassment. I’m not saying that I’m good or pretty or TALL for that matter – who am I to criticise? Even if I were to be tall and pretty and eloquent – someone is bound to say something.. I can’t please everybody.

THen someone goes telling the newspaper that she has a criminal record – credit card fraud. Apparently, she worked in a clinic as an assistant/receptionist or something and she stole client’s/patient’s credit cards spent on a lot of things and got 60 charges – NOT 10 but 6-0! my goodness…so she got 24 mths of supervised probation whatever that means.

So as if that isn’t bad enough…she went on to tell the whole entire Singapore about why she didn’t read the terms and conditions before she even signed up – apparently the other pageants that she signed up for – no one checked, she didn’t read and anyway she didn’t win any so ok lah. But I won’t expect the organisers to check every single one of the applicants – but I would get the applicants to declare that they have no criminal record.AND apparently she has bipolar disorder that’s why her sentence was so lah.

OF course, I”m not advocating that we should be unforgiving to criminals – maybe she was young, tempted by pretty things, materialism etc etc etc… took the wrong turn and did it lah…. but the fact is, she was DISHONEST about it.OF course, if I wanna take part in a pageant, I won’t tell. True. SO maybe the organisers should actually make everyone declare – if not find a way to ensure that everyone is clean.

So I thought, oh dear. Why did she do it then? Yes, she may have deserved a second chance – but she’s not THAT PRETTY. Her Engrish is damn powderful ALREADY. So I thought aiyah, just give up your crown – let someone who maybe has a better chance than you…admit you are wrong and just move on.

WHich she did.

Ok so that ends it all – the organisers will find someone replace her. According to the rules, the 2nd in place should take the crown but this girl Miss Claire Lee apparently fell and hurt her back -which aggravated her back injury which she has already (from studying ?! then I should have broken my back in that case) so she wasn’t sure if she could do it- considering she can’t be standing on heels all the time.

Now, today’s newspaper  – HAIYAH JUST READ THIS LINK LAH.

MISS RIS LOW- as if you don’t look bad enough (you said it yourself) but u r going to so regret it 10 years down the row (don’t need 10 years lah.. maybe 1 month) your english is bad (not your fault maybe), you stole credit cards (not your fault wor you got bipolar what), TOOK PEOPLE’S HARD -EARNED MONEY, show little remorse, say you deserve a second chance and happy that you got it, BLAME IT ON MENTAL DISEASE (ok lah….give u benefit of doubt). AND NOW, you wanna blame SOMEONE FOR TELLING the papers of your criminal record?????????????!!!

SHAME ON YOU.

Seriously, is your bipolar under control?

Even if no one told the newspaper about your criminal record – DO YOU THINK U CAN EVEN LEAVE THE COUNTRY? SOMEONE will find out – if it’s not her, it’s someone else! Paper cannot coverfire (zi shi bao bu zhu huo) really.. WHAT’S GOING ON IN HER MIND!

Just shut up lah! As my colleague puts it, she’s just not mature enough.

I am SO GLAD you are not representing singapore.

ANd congrats to you, you got ALL the attn now, created a new word called boomz! wow.

But are you sure you want to children to know that their mother has bipolar, is crazy, petty and immature?

SOmetimes it’s better to just shut up. I didn’t want write about this but really, she amazes me. wow.

If it were so easy to blame everything on a mental disorder, then I must have bipolar disease, and be maniac depressive and a schizo at the same time! ALl the mistakes I have made I just blame it on that lor.If you have bipolar then go take medicine and be responsible for your condition – don’t go round shooting your mouth off – true maybe bipolar caused you to steal things but if u r under medication and reviews with your shrink, there is no cause for accusing people of things.

Aiyah. I’m going to shut up now.

It’s 1.06am. Can’t sleep.

The stress at work is getting to me. Had 2 days off. but not AT ALL relaxing. Mum has aggravated it. Can’t blame her. Forgetfulness comes with age and I can vouch for that.

Cat’s taken HALF of the bed.

Thought I try playing computer games to make myself sleepy… which it does then when I lie down to sleep- I JUST CAN”T SLEEP.

Been toying with the idea of going part time or even just quitting but the latter choice is almost next to impossible because I need plan B which hasn’t even appeared yet. i.e. I don’t even know what plan B is.

Part time would mean less pay but heck – if I were in this for the money  I would have said sayonara long long long time ago… the rewards ain’t enough man. Input >>>>> output. Input = work/effort. Part time would mean more time – for what? then? I’m the best hermit crab around – besides coming out to gymming. But part time would mean being a bit more happy? I dunno truthfully.

The run at the gym today was refreshing so much so when I came home, I wanted to go back.Ha. Running does relieve stress – a bit lah.

Why can’t I just not talk to people? Most tiring part of the job………………………………………………………………………….

5 km run in a week! Hahaha and I just stufffed myself silly last week at KL. ran 3km today (not continuously slowed down for a while) so good luck to me again! hahaha i lack discipline. What to do? Sometimes what happens at work dampens my mood SO badly I just don’t have the mental focus to even run 1 km.

Ok. Going off to attempt to sleep.

So much for trying to make my blog more ‘alive’! ahahaha. Fail big time!

Oh well, what’s new. Work lah. Let me tell you, to some people working 3 days in a row is NOTHING. (just like having an off day during uni times is nothing) BUT in our field, 3 days of 12 INTENSE hours, always on your feet, brain is never at rest, dealing with emergencies and just running on adrenalin is no fun. What’s tiring is the talking to people. I would never stop wishing if I could just not talk to anyone ..that would be nice! if u intensify that 3 times…(3 consecutive days what) come the 4th day… I’m a walking zombie… @_@

Actually I’m deciding what to do for the day! Can’t waste my off day man! Of course I gotta go to the gym… but that’s only 2 hrs…

Will be off to KL this Sunday! Happyness! Love that place cos of the pace! ooh. rhymes.And of course, the food fooooood. So I think I bettter go run first and run it off…

ok. no more procrastinating.. my eyes seem to be glued to the computer…

People who know me know that I’m a pretty highly irritable person – i.e. anything annoys me easily… but there are certain things that get on my nerves more than anything…

Ok. things that annoy when I drive:

1. People who do not signal when they change lane or turn left into some road.

You may say that EVERYONE does that.. yah I know but what irks me about is – don’t signal must ngei ngei squeeze in my lane. Thinking I can read minds lah! I still don’t understand WHY it’s SO difficult to remind yourself to just lift or push down that little bar next to the wheel.. that difficult meh? It’s BASIC  courtesy I feel to let people know where u r going..esp if u r going to cut someone…

2. People who cut lane so closely AND THEN DRIVE SLOWLY.

I’m sure I don’t need to elaborate. Also those who turn into your lane KNOWING YOU ARE COMING BUT STILL have to come out and then drive slowly…wah…. makes my blood boil.

3. Those who drive on the rightest lane and drive like a snail.

Best if u can’t cut out from the left to overtake becos u r basically stuck. I’m not driving at super high speed, 60km/h right normal roads? Try driving behind someone who drives at 40km/h… and best BEST BEST is the person makes it thru the red light and u r stuck… annoying!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Obviously these snails don’t look at the mirror to see the WHOLE ENTIRE CATERPILLAR OF CARS following…. amazing.

Usually in this group – belongs to another kind of drivers who drive like a snail and brakes on and off on and off BUT THERE IS NOTHING IN FRONT OF THEM!! And imagine the person behind – his/her brain is wondering should I keep my leg on the accelerator or the brake??

If it’s so scary to drive right. THEN DON’T DRIVE LAH! We have super good transport system, taxis galore (who belong to another class of stupid drivers – majority hor…there are still ok ones)then just make use of them lor!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

3.  Taxi Drivers

I’m sorry those who have parents that are taxi drivers.. i’m not saying ALL of them are bad, but unfortunately, majority are irritating. I know that it’s pretty hard to make a living BUT not at the expense of other people’s blood pressure. They do pretty amazing things I’m sure those who drive know…..

Ok. that’s enough to irritate my drive… happens everyday! Oh. I can’t stand those people who keep to the right and then need to turn left right and suddenly decides to change lane when I’m right beside them!!! EXCUSE ME. Even if u put your signal on – I CAN”T SEE!!! You are JUST NEXT DOOR! happened 3 times already.. my car is small I don’t deny but doesn’t mean that you squeeze your big fat ass into my lane…

4. JB motorcycles

Sorry my M’sian friends but I absolutely DETEST THEM. they drift in and out of the lane w/o signalling (and looking) and they ride on the edge of the line – so sometimes u r unsure if u can go past them becos they drift….. yesterday I just had one turn right – i was in the left lane that turns right – he was in the right..so by right I should go to the left and he the right? COMPLETELY WRONG. He turned and cut me so closely and decided to ride on my lane..SLOWLY. then his other JB motorcycle was on the right but slow..so how to cut out? FREAKING ANNOYING.

Next. THings that annoy me generally:

1. People who interuppt.

It’s ok to interuppt once but keep interuppting is DAMN IRRITATING. esp if i get cut if i’m trying to say something that’s impt or trying to get my point across… no chance.

2. My mother telling me to do things the minute I walk out of my door when I just woke up.

Very annoying. My brain is in negative gear, how can I process anything? And then it’s just stress the minute I wake up and I have told her A LOT OF TIMES. I just woken up, why can’t u just greet me and that’s it? *rolls eyes* well I pretty much ignore when she does that …she’s bossy so most of the time she tells to do this and that.. the very minute I wake up… obviously it doesn’t get done.

3. People who think I’m God.

There are certain times when we cannot save – but there are certain people who thinks anybody with the word D.R in front of their surname is GOd. We can perform miracles!! wah! how amazing! YAH RIGHT. hello wake up your stupid idea.I can try my best but there are certain times when we cannot save at all.  In humans, HIV can’t be cured…same what. Best is – people who are the worst least compliant person (like  don’t take medication but expect miracles kind) are the ones that belong to this class. Wah buay tahan.

4. Selfish inconsiderate bastards.

These are the ugly ugly ugly ugly people who think the whole world  just belongs to them…. what to do? All the selfish acts inconsiderate people – sit on the outer chair in buses… park – take 2 lots becos their driving skills sucks like mad.  what else?

4. People who let their kids run amok screaming everywhere bumping into people AND NOT SCOLD THEM OR CORRECT THEM.

I’m sure you get what I mean. And to think these are the future pillars of the country. Had one kid stand on a little platform that’s covering pipes in my consult and it fell of course cos it couldn’t take the weight. the father didn’t even say a thing! amazing. not even apologise for breaking it.

That’s all I think.. the rest are minor things – I can deal with.

May edit this if I think of anymore.