It’s almost been a month since I started work at my new workplace and fwah! So fast!

Actually I don’t feel so scared or nervous anymore. Somehow or rather I feel that I”m supported well. So even if I make mistakes I don’t feel so bad.

And in my four years in my prev work place vs one month just being here, I’ve seen MORE things/cases that I’ve never seen before! I’m learning I hope.

Ok. That’s about it. I’m surviving.

So I was scrolling through my posts all the way back from vet school… and I surprise myself- wah, I actually can write quite well! (ehhehe. Head’s a bit swollen now) and amongst ALL that complaining I did, I must write this:

“5 years of my bloody life. NO more mugging, no more worrying about the stupid cow practical I am going to have the next day, no more sleepless nights, no more falling asleep in lectures, no more saying the wrong thing and being forgiven for it, no more acting dumb (my trick for getting less of a scolding), no more being a student.”

Pardon the french but u must understand, 5 years in uni was quite tough. Anyway,this was when I JUST graduated.

Now I have to retort to these statements I wrote 5 years ago.

I still have sleepless nights – worrying about hospitalised cases, worrying about the surgery, worrying about almost everything that can happen.

I still say wrong things.

I still say dumb things but not on purpose.

haha. It’s actually easier to be the vet student.

But we move on, and not look back and wallow in any regrets we have.

]]> http://fartingshoe.wordpress.com/2011/05/11/2-posts-within-an-hour-bonus-man/feed/ 0 fartingshoe http://fartingshoe.wordpress.com/2011/05/11/canvas/ http://fartingshoe.wordpress.com/2011/05/11/canvas/#comments Wed, 11 May 2011 09:07:20 +0000 fartingshoe http://fartingshoe.wordpress.com/?p=587 Continue reading →]]> I’m bored. REALLY bored. I ran out of ideas for scrapbooking, lost my inspiration. And somehow, lost all interest in anything… literally. Blame it on the PMS man but I feel aimless – where has all that steam gone?

I do have ideas on what projects I can do and have been wanting to do some sort of layout or something related to this song.

The grammar of the subtitles completely wrong man.

Anyway, I want to put these words in my ‘layout’:

Someone who sees like a child, gives like a saint

“Feels like an angel, never mind the broken wings and

Speaks like a picture, cries like the rain

Shines like a star

As long as the fire remains”

So, I took out one of these cheapo canvas bought from Daiso (it’s too white la- they must have bleached it) and placed it on my table. And I’ve no idea what to do – lots of ideas shooting in my mind – make it look really vintagey/rustic? Or bright colors? WHat to use? Paint? distress ink? WHAT? What stamps to use? papers leh? what bout flowers? or even diamond swirls? aaaaahhh.. too much.

So the empty VERY white canvas still lies in front of me. (something’s telling me, not gonna work out very well – normal canvas is off white – maybe should go art friend and buy)

Why the canvas? Not a simple 12″x 12″ cardstock for the background?

It reminds of us. When God made us, we were a big white canvas  – but as life goes on, the canvas gets stained with a lot of things, trauma, good things, the bad things. that is if we let them. Long after, we try to cover the canvas with a protective covering – like mod podge or glaze so that it becomes waterproof.

I’m not applying mod podge till I get something on that piece of canvas!!!

Oh well. Time to rack my brains again. I tell you I think that canvas is going to lie on the table for at least 2 days.

]]> http://fartingshoe.wordpress.com/2011/05/11/canvas/feed/ 0 fartingshoe http://fartingshoe.wordpress.com/2011/05/01/new-scrapbook-post/ http://fartingshoe.wordpress.com/2011/05/01/new-scrapbook-post/#comments Sun, 01 May 2011 14:46:10 +0000 fartingshoe http://fartingshoe.wordpress.com/?p=578 Continue reading →]]> Yes, I’m shamelessly advertising my other blog.  But I have just updated it!

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I want to write a bit about the general election but my back is breaking and I can’t sit any more on the chair and my bed seems to be the better option now…. so maybe soon ok?

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Ok shall leave you with a picture I took of Betty just now

I wanted to focus on her cute little paws and sort of blur it out… nice? Her typical pose when resting on my bed.

I quit my job as u know. Lazed around, went to Taiwan for a month and enjoyed myself and wanna go back again (which I will I promise)

And I found another job. Same line. Just another place with much better working hours, pay and benefits.

So when I went to see my future employer (who is very scary by the way) she said something that struck me: ‘Well, all in all, you have to believe in yourself.’

I heard that before from my previous employer, except in different words :’ Trust no one but yourself.’

And my retort to that (my thoughts la, I didn’t voice it out): ‘How if I don’t trust myself?’

So how? You know how you get all those feel-good cards or sayings, all telling you to believe in yourself etc etc etc.But then I always find it hard. Especially if the decisions you make may cost a life. Then how?

Then, you’d get the ‘Trust God’ – yah, but not all of us have that unwavering faith every second of the day, and hear God’s voice every single moment (especially during those adrenalin rush moments)

I suppose, where I am now, I am not to bad la huh? Made some mistakes, made big ones, small tiny ones..

I suppose I shouldn’t focus on the negatives. And no, I”m not trying to draw sympathy or encouragement.. I just need to remind myself that if God made me, I am ok and alright.

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Do you know why a car’s WINDSHIELD is so large & the Rearview Mirror is so small? Because our PAST is not as important as our FUTURE. Look ahead and move on.

Friendship is like a BOOK. It takes few seconds to burn, but it takes years to write.

All things in life are temporary. If things are going well, enjoy it, they will not last forever. If things are going wrong, don’t worry, they can’t last long either.

Old friends are gold! New friends are diamonds! If you get a diamond, don’t forget the gold! Because to hold a diamond, you will always need a base of gold!

Often when we lose hope and think this is the end, God smiles from above and says, “Relax, sweetheart, it’s just a bend, not the end!

When God solves your problems, you have faith in His abilities; when God doesn’t solve your problems, He has faith in your abilities.

A blind person asked Swami Vivekanand: “Can there be anything worse than losing eye sight?” He replied: “Yes, losing your vision!”

When you pray for others, God listens to you and blesses them, and sometimes, when you are safe and happy, remember that someone has prayed for you.

Worrying does not take away tomorrow’s troubles, it takes away today’s peace.

Don’t ask me what’s next ok, although I have a fair share of pple asking me all that.. I DON’T KNOW (and I don’t want to care for now)

SO besides trying to finish up all my altered notebooks for my nurses and name plates for the vets (which I have lost all inspiration for so that stays on the table for a while) I have been taking photography class. It opened up A WHOLE LOT of things – besides just pointing your camera and press the shutter release- wah, really an art must think one… haha

And besides, IT’S MY BIRTHDAY!!  hehe. Oh well. old liao.next decade liao… i don’t feel old at all!

Ok la, rambling. Leave you with a cute cat I took during my photography outing.

And I have resigned. QUIT.

Such a big relief.

Will be back to talk more – still have to unpack…..